Podcast

My Son Is The Reason I'm Still Here

Peter tells Pastor Neal Graham what he had never said publicly before.

A relationship ended, it broke him, and for months afterwards he planned to take his own life. He was on his way to do it when his son reached him first. Pastor Neal on why he keeps burying young men, why so many of them tell nobody, and what he thinks is actually killing them. Peter on ego, control, and what it finally took to ask for help. Nothing here is a how-to. It is two men talking about staying alive.

Chapters

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1. 0:00Prayer, and why this show exists
2. 2:59The titles men carry
3. 5:54What Peter believed most of his adult life
4. 8:51Where Pastor Neal starts
5. 11:17When everything came apart
6. 12:23The moment his son reached him
7. 12:59Letting go of ego and control
8. 17:47Connecting with the wrong people
9. 23:41A hard lesson
10. 26:14What Pastor Neal sees in his own community
11. 27:12Why he calls it an epidemic
12. 35:29Leading with a different culture
13. 47:58The reality men are sold
14. 51:03We don't know how to talk to each other
15. 54:16Getting into a room with other men